Thursday, March 12, 2009

Alive in You

I keep reading through blogs written by my dad and my friends and thinking to myself, "they all have things to say that people might actually want to hear... what do I have like that?" and then I can't think of anything.

So after weeks of deliberation with... myself... I've finally brought myself to agree with a quote from a movie some of you may know, and it is this- "People's Punisher is not about being read, it's about being written."

So I will write! I've created this blog to write about things related to my music and the experiences which led to the songs I've written. I think it'll be cool to have them documented for myself, but I think it'll be even more cool to share them with anyone who wants to know how and why my music comes to me the way it does.

So big news for me! Yesterday I finished writing and recording my first song since I returned home from Africa 4 months ago. This one makes number 12 I believe. My favorite part about it is listening to the difference between this one and recordings of my previous songs. I think that part is always my favorite. I always feel like I have improved a lot since the last time, which is a great feeling. With this song I had a lot of fun with the vocals, but I admit I have never had as much trouble creating the music or the lyrics as I had with this song. Someone told me that with art, it seems like the creations that give you the most trouble and are the most difficult always turn out the best. I'm not sure I agree with that, it would seem like the pieces that flow smoothly and come straight from the soul would be the best... Either way I enjoy this song greatly.

Someone else told me recently that the best songs are always about a girl. Well, this one is no different. This marks the fourth song I have written specifically to/for this same girl, but this one takes on quite a different approach. Although it is upbeat, the feelings that inspired it were not so happy... I wrote this song to attempt to release all the emotions and sadness I have been feeling over her and to try to move on. I do not lie to her when I tell her that more than anything I want to be able to be friends with her. I really am working to get to this point, but I know that more than anything else it will take time. Well, Emily, maybe this is the last song I will write for you. I will miss wrapping my arms around you for a long long time.

"Alive in You"

You were like the sunshine upon my face
On a chilly winter day
Spreading warmth from the edge of my lips
To the ends of my fingertips

And with a flash of your smile
The stars would collide and
I can't deny that I
Would have lived to see that smile again
And have the corners curl just for me

We used to lie for hours where nobody would find
Just holding onto each other, keeping safe and warm
Oh remember how it used to be
Wrapped up together baby you and me

But I guess I should have known that nothing perfect can last
And now even though a bit of time has passed
I can still feel all of the things I knew
All of the memories made alive in you

I feel like I'm standing in a line
Waiting for a chance to catch the slightest glimpse of you
To see if you would see me too
Like every other boy wants you to do

And I swear that every time I close my
Eyes I'm praying for the
Day you'll come around and see
That we were perfect baby you and me...

I been for sitting here for days now, just thinking this through
And wondering what have I got to do
Because I know there's got to be some way
For me to get the message up to you

That I just don't know what to do without you here in my life
Shouted it about a thousand times
But every time it seems to echo back
From the endless emptiness I can't break past

I feel like I'm standing in a line
Waiting for a chance to catch the slightest glimpse of you
To see if you would see me too
Like every other boy wants you to do

And I swear that every time I close my
Eyes I'm praying for the
Day you'll come around and see
That we were perfect baby you and me...

'Cause I just don't know what to do without you here in my life...
'Cause we were perfect baby you and me